I think I'll be totally chiche and talk about my resolutions for the new year. Usually I make half ass ones, and don't stick to them. Maybe because I don't really care. But this year, I got nothing else to do but care.

First Resolution:
Stop totally fucking smoking. It's been about 10 years now, it's time to quit. Intellectually I don't want to smoke anymore, but emotionally I love it. It's good times for me. If it wasn't so gross, I'd have the biggest ashtray on the coffee table and smoke all freakin day. But it is gross and I guess bad for you and lots of guys wouldn't date someone who smokes. I have enough problems with boys, I don't need to add to them. So the smoking goes. It will be sorely missed. I've cheated a little bit on this one, it's been 2 weeks since I had one.

Second Resolution:
Find a job. Jeez, you think?

Third Resolution:
Lose some weight. I've put on some weight and not very happy with the way I look. That leads to a poorly projected self-image that people negatively respond to. And if I can lose 10-15 pounds, my wardrobe will increase.

Fourth Resolution:
Be honest with myself about what I want to do with my life and not be so influenced by what I think I should want.

Fifth Resolution:
If I want to do something, do it. Don't worry about what people will think or say. As long as it doesn't negatively impact anyone.

That's enough for now.

I could really totally smoke a whole pack of cigarettes now.